going to the chapel

well, it has been once again far too long since my last blog entry. this has been my first real summer of complete freedom in many many years. i decided to take the entire summer quarter off, postponing next year's graduation by a quarter or two and i am so thankful i did. this time away from the busyness of school, the stress of studying and homework and tests and the refreshing taste of home has rekindled inside of me a fundamental knowledge of who i am. i am rediscovering the things that bring me joy and i am delighting in the smallest of details that have gone unnoticed for far too long. right now, at this very moment, i could tell you how many minutes the sun was out today, how many times i heard the thunder clap and what the mountains looked like at sunrise. i could tell you every morsel of food i enjoyed and every discussion i had with friends and family. i have called people that i haven't seen in years. i have written letters... REAL letters, you know, the kind with ink and paper and stamps and envelopes. i have laid in the grass and watched the clouds. i have curled up in a ball and counted shooting stars. i have played board games and laughed at late night episodes of the cosby show. i tried tapioca pudding for the first time and sampled homemade sangria made with love by my sweet husband-to-be.

ahh yes, that man. my love. the reason for all of this enjoyment and pleasure and joyful refreshment. in the midst of all my returning to myself there is a new epicenter of love and passion and peace and strength and hope. desires and dreams for the future are shaped around a new figure, dialogues of where i will go and who i will be have taken up a companion on the journey - and oh! what a journey it will be!

i could not have asked for a more beautiful love story, i could not have asked for a more perfectly matched partner for the ride. we are truly one another's yin and yang. as cliche as it has become, at night when i fall asleep i realize it is true that i can say to him - 'you, complete me.' we are complements and companions, we face one another to encourage and to challenge. there is such beauty in what is created when we share our worlds with each other. it is as if a whole entire universe all its own is created when we are in one another's presence.

oh what a joy it will be to see where this new universe takes us!