i guess more often than not i have no idea what i am talking about, but i especially feel at a loss today.

maybe part of the problem is that i truly, deeply find myself without even the slightest bit of energy to muster a word to say, a thought to think, or a single thing to do.

i could be cute and trite and cliched and spiritual, but i don't really feel like it. i could post a quote or a verse or lyrics from a song that are really inspiring, but i don't feel inspired.

i kind of feel like cussing or just yelling really loud or maybe both together.

it all just seems so cruel and difficult to swallow...kind of like when you run really hard and then you stop because you're lungs are burning and there's nothing you can do to catch your breath except work though the painful gasps and hope that slowly you will begin to really breath again.

this would be a good time to be a poet or something kind of artistic and melancholy. maybe i will take up beat-poetry...i hear almost anyone can do it...or just break out my guitar and write songs that talk a lot about cigarettes and jaded romances.

well, i guess the next best thing is lots of ben and jerry's and watching breakfast at tiffany's...hey i don't know anyone who took a shaft with more elgance than audrey hepburn.