who i am?

evidently my career as an existential memoir-ist has come to a close. from here on i will do my best to s-p-e-l-l it o-u-t. so life in rachelle's world is strange...i guess what else is new right? currently i am listening to avril lavigne and realizing that just as lavigne is pronounced 'luh-veen' so it would follow that lamontagne would be pronounced 'luh-mahn-tahn' hmmm. (for the critics...i'm not trying to be cryptic -- just a thought i thought i'd share)

i went to the mountains this weekend. and it was so refreshing to be so close to creation. i guess sometimes when i get all caught up in life here at school i forget all of the millions of tiny little things that make me, well, me.

i didn't come back to this quarter with the best of attitudes -- that is an understatement...i boarded the plane with tears in my eyes and i really haven't stopped throwing a tantrum until now.

life is so weird. you know, things don't turn out the way you would have expected. and that can be a little unsettling at times. but i guess it is the unexpected beauty that really makes life rich.

i still haven't a clue where my life is headed. but i am more okay with that now than i have ever been before.

i planted a vegetable garden today. it was just what i needed. (we'll have to stay tuned to see whether anything will actually grow) a little something to look forward to i guess. and my hands were so full of rich, dark soil and my clothes got dirty and i discovered caterpillars and earwigs and these really odd little red slugs. as spring blossoms at our house we are discovering all of the love and attention this home has seen -- lilac bushes and blue bells and tulips and irises and rose bushes and bamboo and poppies...it is really incredible, really.

and again, i am reminded to wait and watch. His hand is at work all around, i needn't do a thing.

i am humbled,

and i am weak,

but his strength is perfect in my weak spots...and so i am strengthened...by His great grace.










'we throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. we find ourselves stnding where we always hoped we might stand -- out in the wide open spaces of God's grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise.'
romans 5:2