the deconstruction of man

matthew 19

14 Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”


the more you learn, the more you realize just how much you don't know.

its always this maddening puzzle, life, i mean. its like we want to know what's going on, but the harder we try to figure it out the more we realize just how impossibly entangled we've gotten ourselves. and then there comes this point when we just stop trying and start accepting. its like life begins rolling at a pace that whispers "i know something you don't know" and for all these years we keep chasing the echo of the unattained answer and then one day we awaken just long enough to realize, like a jaded lover, that we will never figure it out. and so we give up. we stop trying and we start living. for the moment. we give into our addictions, we listen to our cravings and we stop caring. numb. it really doesn't matter anymore because we will never win. it has already won and the more we chase the more we find ourselves enslaved. if we just stop caring, the throbbing ache to know stops prodding at our hearts.









at least for a little while.

17“Why do you ask me about what is good?” Jesus replied. “There is only One who is good..."

how silly of me to think any sort of goodness actually has something to do with me!
i guess things have to get worse before they can get better.
its like we have to be torn down to the ugly, raw truth of who we are. what we're made up of. before Christ can make anything out of us.

21Jesus answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”

the sweet thing is, He doesn't mind seeing that side of us...the really real side...in all its ugly depravity.

22When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth.

maybe its me who doesn't want to see that side of myself...why is it that the greatest thing i fear is me?

29And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. 30But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.

in one swift blow. this brief passage records Jesus' ultimate undermining theology that undoes every great thing man has done.
"go back to being children" He tells us.

perhaps numbness is not the answer, but the turning point.
maybe our post-modern culture is closer to the heart of Christ than they realize.