yummy goodness

if there is one thing i have been learning as of late, its that you really shouldn't ask of God anything you don'y really want...prayers like "break me Lord" or " give me patience" should only be petitioned with great care and intentionality.
but the cool part is, even if the lesson isn't really what you were up for, the outcome is quite worth the tumultuous journey in getting there.

"this is how we know that we love the children of God; by loving God and carrying out His commands. this is love for God: to obey His commands..."

i john 5:2-3

so i guess when i asked God to teach me to love i didn't really know what i was getting myself into. i thought learning to love was all about other people, i didn't really think first He would turn my life upside down and shake out all the crap i was holding onto that was preventing me from abiding more deeply in Him.

but i learned a great lesson today. because through these refining fires Christ has faithfully proved Himself to me...my unmoving stronghold, my portion, the salvation of my heart, my perfect peace. so when the opportunity to love arrived at my doorstep this morning my instinct to turn and flee got tripped up on the Cornerstone and i found myself flat on my face with nothing left but Christ's love pouring out of me! i don't think i've ever been quite so afraid, felt quite so vulnerable, or come so close to peeing my pants in my sweet little buick. nor have i ever been quite so overwhelmed by the unwavering confidence that my God was there to do whatever i asked in His name.

i tasted a bit of John 15 today and i'm not sure my appetite will ever be quite the same ;o)

speaking of appetites, this week i found out you can eat corn dogs, mashed potatoes, mushy salad, and red jello and really truly jump out of your seat for seconds!!!...for all of it!
i also discovered that sleeping in one's clothes for the next day can prove to be a noteworthy time-saving technique, that i can last exactly four and a half days without showering, that a few sparkly bracelets can dress up anything...even an old t-shirt from goodwill, and that kids really really love chugging contests, but not as much as comparing their puke afterwards.

mis lecciones nuevas!

well, its pretty cool because God has been so gracious to bring me to an incredible new classroom where i find myself just sitting at His feet and soaking up His goodness!!!!

a verse that has resonated in my mind over and over is i john 4:16...

"and so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love.

whoever lives in love
lives in God

and God

in him." (!!!)

i have so very much to learn about the vast and overwhelming love of Christ but everyday is filled with opportunity to put His Truth into practice!

anyways, because of my limited access to internet i have to pack it all into one little entry so i can only offer the abbreviated versions.

but i also wanted to say i think my faith in the justice of our law enforcement has been completely undermined...i love u officer conway, but i also kinda think you're an idiot!!!...i have my first ever court hearing on the fateful day of tuesday, august 16th at eight am...eeek i feel like a criminal. but really really i'm not! well, i did break the law but...anyways i guess i have a whole summer to get over it!

also, just wanted to mention, i never thought i would have such high regards for chili-mac, but one week at camp and now its my idol! yum yum i love that noodlie goodness ;o)

happy june.