hate to love and love to hate her
today is a very rainy grey seattle day and i find myself sitting in a cozy little coffee shop attempting to be a diligent student...but my mind wanders...across the table from me sits a girl who looks not unmuch like myself -- with a stack of MCAT study books piled under her chair ;o) i guess sometimes it is good to get the chance to glimpse in the mirror and catch a reflection of who we really have become.
sometimes i think i have become exactly what i always hoped i would not. like an ironically paradoxical self-fullfilled prophecy (?!) but then every once in awhile we are given an opportunity to make a break for it...to live a life totally unlike anything we have ever known before. (ah! but why is it so maddeningly difficult to make the most of those opportunities?)
so i guess more than anything i just hate it when the silly choices of my life seem to invade the lives of others...i only wish i didn't have such a terrible habit of making a fool of myself.
sometimes i think i have become exactly what i always hoped i would not. like an ironically paradoxical self-fullfilled prophecy (?!) but then every once in awhile we are given an opportunity to make a break for it...to live a life totally unlike anything we have ever known before. (ah! but why is it so maddeningly difficult to make the most of those opportunities?)
so i guess more than anything i just hate it when the silly choices of my life seem to invade the lives of others...i only wish i didn't have such a terrible habit of making a fool of myself.